sometimes, it’s better to be on your own.
Anywhere but here.
"Someone who wants to stay in your life would do it without asking. Never beg and ask for someone to stay, cause if they refuse, it will hurt you a lot more."
(via hiddiexandria)
(via rollingpixie)
I don’t get it how you can mean the world to someone else, and then they can just harshly leave you to be alone the next day.
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Write about the lessons you’ve learned this year:
1. There are hard days. Sometimes you hate to get up in the morning, or cry yourself to sleep at night. But those days will pass.
2. Sometimes, you just have to accept you’re not feeling well. Cancel your plans, make some food and stay in bed. Sometimes, that’s exactly what you need.
3. However, don’t let your feelings take over. It’s okay to do nothing for a day, or two. But don’t make it a week.
4. I know I did let my feelings take over way too much. I stayed in bed, did nothing all day. Until the point that I had to get out.
5. Getting out of bed can feel good. Make your bed, eat some breakfast. Just do something. And be proud of yourself for what you’ve accomplished - even if it’s just eating breakfast.
6. Don’t be angry at yourself, that never works out.
7. Just take care. Of yourself, your mind, your body, everything. And accept the fact that sometimes things just don’t work out the way you want to.
8. Don’t shut people out. They are there to help.
9. You are the one that has to pick up the pieces after a breakdown. But you’re not alone, even if it feels like you are.
10. Sometimes I think I’ve control over my feelings, but I don’t. They come and go. I just have to accept that. Sometimes the feelings are just too much, and I have to take a step back. Start again. There’s always a second chance.
youarejustlovely
(via wnq-writers)
(Source: wnq-writers.com, via caramaple)
I need to be on my own. No one else. Goodbye.
We’ve had our moment. A fantasy in reality. Now, we’re divided back into our two separate world. Whatever that we had, it’s something that I’ll cherish and treasure forever. Rage rage rage into the night.
my head is in a mess. and I’ve subconsciously been riding above 200km/hr every night. not sure how does it help with the situation but i felt ‘nothingness’ at that speed. my mind will go blank; just me against the cold wind.
if I do crash and die. well, at least my last few moments were stress free and happy.
I dont know when I’ll passed. But if it did happen, please know that I was happy with my life. Smile.
2018
I’ve had a few downs in 2017, but nevertheless I’m always grateful for everything that have happened. I lost a few and at the same time I’ve gain a few too. If there’s one thing I’ve learned this year, is that never ever let someone be the reason for me to do things that I do not want to do.
Work havent been improving. But they still pay me pretty well. Where am I going from here? Property? Design? Business? Only god know. 2018 is the year I’ll get this fix once and for all. Oh, I’m starting wedding videography as a sideline job/hobby. Hope it will be smooth sailing.
Do I have someone now? Maybe. I really don’t know. Am I alone? No. Am I getting married anytime soon? I want to, badly. I’m getting really old. I’m just hoping for the best for my love life. Is she the one? Hmmm.
2017 have been really great, and to tell you that I did not end it off with a bang, I must be lying. A miracle sort of happen and I’m it a little bit of dillemma right now in the first week of 2018.
Definitely have to settle this and not drag it till it affects everything else. I’m missing a lot of people in my life. And trust me, the people that I’ll give up my time to this year will only be to those who’s worth my time and effort.
Because well, the clock is ticking…
life documentation in a paragraph.
27 years living. roughest week of my life. never knew one person can ruin your whole life in an instant. life lesson: never let anybody have that kind of power ever. i really hope things will get better. on a good note, bound for graduation this august. alhamdullilah hard work in the 3 years paid off. hope the parents will be proud. i miss a lot of people. but I’m comfortable being on my own for now. grateful for another ramadan. always never too late to change and be a better person. 200km/hr on the ducati always makes everything so much better. just for the record, invested on bitcoin. goodnight.